Still felt weird...

Its really quite difficult to adapt to a new environment. After getting married, i have to live together with my in-laws... previously, i stayed together with my grandparents... i have a room to myself and i can talk and laugh as much as i want...

Now, its nice to have a room that is really mine with my hubby lying next to me... someone to hug when i felt lonely. Even since i moved here, i often have this strange kind of feeling... i felt extremely 'empty' and will start to shiver... the feeling that makes you want to cry... that's even before Natelie left me...

My mother-in-law(Mother) is nice to be with, but she is also rather quiet... as for my father-in-law(Father)... he looks stern.... i tried to make some conversation... but sometimes it feels weird when i talk and he doesn't reply... i really hope to adapt myself into the family... i always wanted a happy family... Am i getting one?

My hubby's brother is also very nice. He cares and shows concern by calling my hubby and asking how i am feeling often.

Mother now always prepares soup for me before she goes to work and i will do the cooking for my lunch and dinner.. It really feels weird to be eating alone on the dining table with 3 dishes and a soup all to yourself. It really feels lonely... Confinement... Confinement can be very boring when you have to be at home for a month and eating all the same kind of food over and over again... but what's different for me, is that i do not have a baby to look after during confinement... I miss Natelie! I want to carry her in my arms, please tell me its all a dream!!!

Confinement mummy without a baby